i was thinking tonight the last few things i have been posting have not been anything of great spiritual interest or profound, which is cool, but i am wondering if i have been losing touch with my *self* these past couple of days/weeks because of the different things going on in my life.
i mean, i attempt to keep before the foot of the Cross in all i worry about; i pray constantly, in perpetual conversation with my Father; i still attend daily mass, which is always wonderful, even if my mind does wander...but i feel lately, i am lacking focus. i feel tied up, knotted at times, and get frustrated with myself for my seemingly lacking prayer-filled soul - they are just words, circling, circling, sentences trailing off, until the attention deficit grabs ahold of the next thought and so it begins anew.
then i happened upon this post by my friend kalanna. she just (today?) posted about wanting to find perfect peace and holiness before the Blessed Sacrament and instead of berating herself for letting her mind wander, she allowed herself the freedom in Jesus to do so, in an act of emptying herself.
oh, how i wish i allowed myself such freedom! after reading her inspiring entry, methinks i may try it for myself tomorrow. and by so doing, perhaps leave behind in the church pew the ropes that so tighten my mind and my thoughts - finally released. thank you, Lord, for allowing me to find inspiration of this magnitude in a web log.
You always meet me right where i am.