live 8

i admittedly watched several hours of the coverage on mtv. i don't ascribe to a lot of what these musicians *stand for* in real life, but their music was good and i felt the cause, worthy. plus it took me waaaay back to 1985 when i was a single mom and ben sat on my lap and clapped and danced along with bono and freddie mercury. even at 10 months old, he loved music.

through watching this program on saturday, i found that i, as a conservative Christian, might actually be becoming a bit more liberal in my views than my fellow conservative brethren. blog surfing this morning turned up some very conservative views on the event, one of which i will actually link to - amy's roundtable, as well as more *liberal* thinking which is squaring up with my view, rick from new life emerging.

i admittedly felt that amy had some good points, but felt myself surfing away from her blog had me thinking "who are we, sinful and sorrowful, to say who God should choose as His messengers?" really. who the hell are we to judge anyone?

if it raises awareness and funds for the cause, does it really matter who did it? or does it matter that it was done by the folks that people feel no love for and therefore, isn't worth a fig? simply because a bunch of musicians who have a past (and present, actually) are doing God's work without labeling it as such, should we simply sit back and scoff at their efforts? my Lord - what if it raises -- gulp -- hope?

::shudder to think::

then it got me thinking: what if people who read my blog daily - what if you knew my past, my youth, my present...my many, many indiscretions -- would you stop reading? would you feel like no matter what good i do or try to do in my measly attempts on the internet or in real life, that it's all bullshit because i used to be/still am a miserable sinner?

there have been many occasions in my life wherein God decided to use the exact person i wouldn't even think of paying a dime's worth of attention to to actually get my attention and focus on that which i would rather not: changing my self.