appointment

i have an appointment at 1:00 est with an infectious disease doctor as a second opinion and to see if i can return to work next week.

i am not sure how i feel about this; i am a bit nervous about seeing someone new. further, i am unsure if i am ready to return to work as my glands are still swollen and painful, i still need my mid-day nap, and i am absolutely so exhausted by 8:00 p.m. and cannot keep my eyes open for reruns of the daily show or pretend to be awake for the colbert report.

what kind of a life is this??

(kidding, kidding...)

we need the money, i am not going to pretend financial independence. however, i am a little bit nervous so if you read this within the next 1/2 hour, please send up a quick arrow prayer.

thanks :)

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updated to add information -- the physician's assistant ordered extensive blood tests (8 tubes' worth, i requested juice and a donut following my donation) a CT scan of my chest, abdomen and pelvis because my lymph nodes are also enlarged in these areas. seems she feels that all of this points to a recurrence of my sarcoidosis, but it is affecting a different area this time - last time it was my lungs. this time, my lymph nodes and believe it or not, the hives i have been experiencing may also be a part of what has been coming on for seemingly some time now.

who knew?

i go back on the 4th of january to meet with the doctor himself and go over test results. i am hopeful all symptoms will have subsided by then; however, i think i will need to reeducate and manage this disease which was supposed to remain in remission.

on a brighter note (for me anyway), i am able to return to "light duty" next week. i am looking forward to some time on holy ground and the ability to shift my focus. God is good, right?

all the time.