Collection: Photodisc Greenrandom thought of the day: when i am beyond stressed, i to eat that which is labled "comfort foods."
compulsive? probably.
curative? not.
feel good when i am doing so? you betcha.
my drug(s) of choice: cheeseburgers, french fries.
it almost doesn't matter "where from," it just matters that they are hot and there is ketchup.
that is all i have to say about that and yes, i saw supersize me, i am fully aware of the havoc i am causing to my bod-ay, and no, they don't know my first name at mcdonald's.
not yet, anyway.
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mom had her cardiac catherization today. 20/30% narrowing of arteries on right-hand side of her heart, related to her "severe pulmonary disease," which "coronary artery disease" can be regulated with medication. next stop: colonoscopy, after her cardiologist gives his blessing (hopefully by today or tomorrow the blessing shall be, then probably another day...)
when my mother is discharged, she will be in a rehabilitation facility for at least a few weeks, maybe longer. i am beginning to wonder if she will ever regain her strength to the point where she can be independent enough for us to leave her for a day and go to work. the other
day 11 of the hospital and i am growing pretty weary. i have had other things on this not-so-large plate (when it's full, anyway) and i told my sister today that as of right now, i am a little mad at God and am thankful i have other friends who have been talking to Him for me. i
know i will come around, but as of right now, i don't have very much to say to Him.
i know, i know...
7 comments:
I can so relate, Penni, about being mad at God... I still am... I know he's OK with it, though.
Sometimes a good lesson like this hospital stay will be enough for your mom to ask for help when she needs it...
and I have been living on comfort food since daddy died- my body will just have to understand how my heart feels right now...
Hope you are taking care of yourself and yes, that means eating comfort foods when you need to.
Love you, Pen...
Please share this with your mom:
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You've had so much to process Penni... it's OK to be a bit tiffed right now. You've been so strong for everyone else too. Wish I could wrap your spirit in a very long, warm hug. Continued prayers ascend.
try the Big and Tasty for $1...one of McD's best kept secrets...and their fries know no equal.
As for God, he hangs with us, even when we falter...ready to take us back, anytime.
You'll be ok Penni. don't be too hard on yourself. He knows how you feel.
Penni:
for some strange reason, I JUST "discoverd" your other blog, the one with the poetry...and I am astounded, amazed, touched, warmed and somewhat breathless. I was reading - and feeling - and relating - to everything I read. Then, I came to the post from August of 2006, where you talked about your mom giving you her wedding rings... Wow. What "timing". She sounds like an amazing woman...
I too just discovered your blog. I went through very similar feelings with my mom. You can read about my journey on my blog. Check the Jan. 2005-May 2005 posts.
The times that I was discouraged, disappointed, angry, and not able to pray where the times that I knew that the prayers of others were bringing much grace to my life. If it weren't for them, I don't know how I would have made it through the whole process. Ultimately, this is the time in my life that I grew the most in my faith. And I've been told that it is ok to be angry with God. Let Him know. He can take it!
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