go fish :)

i know when someone says something to me that i take a bit of an affront to that there is truth in what they are saying to me. God has shown me time and again that if i get even the slightest bit defensive about it, even though i may not acknowledge it or embrace it at that moment, it will be revealed to me why, exactly, i was offended. this is not necessarily a good thing, folks, but it helps me in my walk o' humility with God, so it is all good.

in my first experience of God post, my friends mark and maggie both tried to assure me that i was already "in it" -- maggie was bold enough to tell me "You're swimming in the ocean of God's grace and mercy and you don't even realize it you silly little fish." well, now.

i reasoned away, opined, told her pretty much flat-out that i disagreed -- i still believe you can have a mind-numbing experience, do not misunderstand me; she was, however, spot on when she said i am swimming in the ocean of God's grace and mercy. maybe because she called me a fish?

nah.

i was looking for a Damascus experience, one that would knock my socks off. i am of the mindset as i type this out this morning that several Emmaus experiences can equal one Damascus and when you add them up, they are worth more than the sum of their parts.

these past thee days have blown me out of the water. i worked monday and tuesday on labor & delivery: monday, i assisted in two "natural" (for the fellas) births, each one so different from the other, one was normal, the other, horrific; one Cesarean section, which i was apprehensive about observing because of it being major surgery, but man, what a miracle....tuesday, i was "second scrub" for three c-sections, meaning, i was next to the surgeon or the assistant surgeon, handing off instruments and observing and learning exactly what these instruments are....wednesday, i was asked by my preceptor (scrub teacher) to come in for two more c-sections, which i did, and it was in-cred-i-ble.

i will be back later to elaborate as i have to make pancakes for my daughter to heat up upon her rising this morning, go to scrub class from 7-11 and then off to the cafe to give my dear husband a bit of relief. i am off tomorrow (thank you Lord!) but then back on the floor saturday. my head is so full of incredible details -- of which God is in them all -- that i feel as though i may burst if i don't put it out here that so many amazing things are happening, i almost cannot bear it!

so here it is, my post to tell angelmeg i am a silly little fish, after all :)