(i cannot wait for this book to be released.)
first off, i have to stop with my knee-jerk reactions about leaving the Catholic faith. while i am disappointed and a bit hurt by my confessor, i am reconciled within myself over what transpired yesterday. i know my sin, i know what drives me to do so and, as old as i am, i should know better and not give in so easily to the desires of my flesh. i have hopefully turned a corner on this *thing*, all by myself and with the help of several bloggie pals. i am also going to go the parish which is about 15/20 minutes from here that is being run by the priest who catechized me when i converted. i went a few months ago and said something to him about jumping ship where i was now that i know he is back at the helm somewhere and his response was, "we'd love to have you!" i am not quite ready to go to confession, just yet; i am still smarting a bit as one of my friends so aptly put it. i will go when i feel compelled to do so.
i was also thinking if someone like the Blessed Mother Teresa had dark moments -- okay, 40 years worth!! -- who am i to think that i should be without same? (editor's note: i am not comparing myself to Mother Teresa, please don't misunderstand what i mean here. thanks.)
i just read a quote in another book i am reading which is really, really incredible called Sacred Marriage (which is also another blog post for another time....):
I would not consider any spirituality worthwhile that wants to walk in sweetness and ease and run from the imitation of Christ. ~ John Climacus
i am also glad i am in good company.