maybe i am not as standard as one thinks and don't fit the basic mold. my major points of issue are how i look forward to 5:00 p.m. so i can pour myself a glass of merlot (or whatever else it is i bought) and i am finding i am finishing off the bottles with little or no help and the bottles are seemingly much smaller than they used to be. and then i begin looking for more. shit, i love my wine. i've been spending at least $45+/week at the liquor stores and i am starting to go to different ones so the clerks don't recognize me. that's pretty effing pathetic.
however, i find myself doing screening tests and my result was: 4-9 points: High risk for problem drinking. Addiction to alcohol is likely. Contact your doctor for help.
and this article presented me with beginning stages. just for kicks, i thought i'd highlight what i am going through at this time:
The Early Or Adaptive Stage Of Alcoholism
In the early stage of alcoholism a person starts drinking alcohol just to change his or her mood, to get relief from some type of problem. The person affected along with friends and family members are not aware that they are in the early stage of alcoholism. Their eagerness for alcohol continues to increase, which means they have to increase the amount of alcohol consumption to achieve the desired type of mood. In early stages of alcoholism the body begins to adapt itself to the increased amount of alcohol. At this stage of alcoholism, the body does not loose its' controls, which means the person can still walk in a straight line without loosing their controls from the body but if they continue to drink alcohol the level in their body starts increasing.
this didn't help, either, gleaned from another About article but also found here: Many have major depression...and anxiety problems.
- Typically middle-aged, well-educated, with stable jobs and families
- About one-third have a multigenerational family history of alcoholism.
- One-quarter had major depressive illness at some time in their lives
or go without.