So my step sponsor said to start writing my 4th step as part of my homework this week. And so it began, in the parking lot of the CVS this morning as I waited for it to open.
(Have I mentioned my aimless wandering since my meeting start time changed??)
It is not an easy writing assignment. You see, I have no resentments, or not many, that I can think of. Am I perhaps Angelic? Not really. Delusional? Mebbe. I just really don’t resent many folks.
Now, if you ask me to write about the many people who get on my last raw nerve? Now we’re talking! I began writing. I read a lot, wrote some more. Followed my notes, did my assignment, called my sponsor and said I probably wouldn’t be ready by Wednesday. She said she didn’t expect me to be done, just started, and that it could take upwards of a month.
A month? Are you kidding me?
I have to admit – I have issues with doing this at all. It feels nitpicky. It feels unnecessary as I have already given up all this stuff in the confessional and been forgiven. It’s all tossed into the
I have issues with this, people. I know, I know – it’s part of sobriety. It’s part of working the steps.
I know I know I know.
I want an easier, softer way.