a post of comments

In my "Banding" post, below, there were many fruitful and insightful comments, none that were disparaging but all, encouraging me in various ways. I am thankful.

I just wanted to post some nuggets of wisdom because they are too wonderful to keep in that post and in haloscan, alone.

"...when I was at the cancer clinic for radiation ,they said white sugar feeds cancer, Well that was enough to put me off sugar." -- Joanee

"If you aren't capable of making the life choices to change your weight now, you won't neccesarily be able to after the band either. Eventually we all find a way to feed the "hunger" 'cuz it really isn't in our belly to begin with."

and

Remember.. the band has to stay in for the rest of your life to be effective.. and that's a long time to hope nothing goes wrong. -- Mia

I think you are right -- with the way my life goes, nothing is and without complications. Perhaps my consideration to have this surgery is coming to a close - onto another weight loss method (one that works) -- suggestions?

food, glorious food

jules has given me food for thought with her deep gazings into the navel of idol worship of food over love of God. i thought "gee, i can understand that..." but didn't really give it a second thought.

until today in the fitting room at macy's.

you see, i have put on a couple of a few pounds over the course of the last two years and they have added up to me being able to only wear one or two select outfits during any given weeks. quite frankly, the kids are undesirous of seeing me in "the uniform" just one more time, so i thought i'd be a good sport and go to the mall for some clothes shopping. i despise clothes shopping for myself, especially when it is for the reason of nothing fits because i've gained weight.

still. nothing fits.

i am beside myself because i cannot find clothing i like at prices i like better and worst of all, my favorite store habitat (read: hippie clothing) closed. so in front of the mirror, i said "oh, Lord...i cannot believe this." and you know what came up in my spirit? "perhaps you love food more than you love God."

you know what? He is breaking me in so many areas, why not one more? i cannot imagine that fruit and certain veggies are to be considered off-limits, but the breads and stuff that i find making its way into my mouth? yeah. i know.

could God really make something that delicious (think: fresh pears or pineapples) and then turn and say "no, you really can't have them because the sugar gets into your blood stream and you start to lose control." (my voice, not God's) moderation is key, but i can't seem to do anything in moderation. seriously. moderation is a problem for me.

any thoughts on this for the umpteenth time? balance your eating? atkins/low carbs vs. high carbs/low fats? what say you, good eating people?